This makes me chuckle.
Over the last year, I used Facebook as a sort of positive thinking blog, sharing my events, in life, and reading about how my friends and family are getting along. Quite often, hearing what others have gone through motivates me and makes me want to become a better person. I try, as much as possible, to learn from my own life experiences as well as the experiences of my peers.
I'm not an overly big fan of 'general moaning' and I try to speak positively, as much as possible. Negativity can spread like a virus and infect person after person. But, although I give off an upbeat, positive manor, my life hasn't been without its problems and setbacks.
Around the age of 18, I had a massive breakdown, followed by turning very quickly into a blubbering vegetable. I regressed so far back into my childhood, that I started calling out to Pikachu, thinking I was Ash Ketchum from Pokémon or something. The doctors thought it was drug use, when in actual fact it was a direct result of almost a decade of emotional and physical bullying. Not to mention, an insurmountable amount of stress, in the school environment, triggered by the last exam of my A Levels.
My father had to re-teach me to shower and perform day to day functions. I then had to re-learn, re-grow and re-mature, taking me the best part of 5 years. I was given a second chance in life to grow up again, but this time, on my terms, without being subjected to years of emotional stress.
It was a good few years until I was able to leave the house, with confidence, and pick up the phone and talk to people, without feeling incredibly nervous, fearful and anxious.
I then spent the next few years going from one job to the next, trying to find my purpose in life. The amount of jobs I have left in the last few years would probably make most people’s minds boggle. Equally so, the amount of new jobs I have taken on, in the last year, would also make most people’s minds boggle.
So why am I telling you all of this?
I'm not perfect, not by any stretch of the imagination. No one is.
The last 24 years of my life has been an uphill struggle, filled with adventure, fear, upset, lucky breaks, rehabilitation, and countless other mixed emotions and events.
I have made so many mistakes that I wouldn't even be able to count them on the fingers of an entire football stadium, full of fans. I like mistakes and problems. I think they can be funny and, quite often, symbolise that I need to learn something new, in order to not make the same mistake again. I have now learnt to embrace stress and the problems that life throws at me.
This all said, people still seem to see me as “successful”. Why?
Because I keep driving forward.
Yes, I may catch the occasional lucky break, but most of the time, that has been because I laid the seed for that plant of luck somewhere in the past. I'm finally reaping the rewards of the seeds I sewed.
Stress, mistakes and problems certainly don’t slow me down anymore. If anything, they keep motivating and driving me forward.
My life, and career, has been one big ball of mistakes, rolling around lost, scared and confused, forgetting things, and then learning new things.
But in spite of that, I just keep POWERING FORWARD.
My life has been no easy ride.
But what about you? Have you had an easy ride? Or, like me, has it been full of stress and mistakes?
Although, the real question I should be asking you is...
Are you letting your stresses and mistakes, of your past, slow you down?
I really hope not. How about we enjoy life, learn to love our mistakes / imperfections and embrace them.